Las redes sociales muestran siempre un mundo en color de rosa. Los problemas no existen en Instagram y las fotografías bonitas son las que se llevan todos los me gusta. Sin embargo, la realidad está muy lejos de lo que se muestra en las plataformas virtuales y así lo dejó en claro la influencer Ruth Lee.

A través de su cuenta, la joven realizó una profunda reflexión sobre lo que es estar saludable y cómo esa obsesión por lograrlo la llevó a tener pensamientos suicidas. Por medio de una postal, donde muestra su antes y después, la bloguera admitió que no todo estaba bien en su vida.

“Voy a hacer mi mejor esfuerzo para expresarme lo mejor que pueda. De ninguna manera estoy promoviendo un estilo de vida poco saludable, ni mucho menos. Entonces, por favor, no dejes que ese sea tu primer pensamiento mirando esta imagen”, partió señalando la joven.

Lee sostiene que cuando las redes sociales e Instagram aparecieron por primera vez “lo adoramos y buscamos tener un antes y después y luego fue todo lo contrario. Yo también fui víctima de ello. Pensamos: ‘GUAU, pérdida de peso = felicidad’ y lo anhelaba”, indicó.

La bloguera se sinceró, indicando que todo lo que quería era tener un cuerpo saludable, pero aquello la llevó hacia una profunda depresión. “No me malinterpreten, es un hecho científico para muchos que ‘hábitos más saludables’ = ‘cuerpos más saludables’. Pero no para todos. Soy transparente y ya he compartido esto, pero unos meses después de la imagen de la izquierda, había alcanzado una profunda depresión que pensé que había ‘vencido’. Tenía pensamientos suicidas a diario. Es aterrador e incómodo admitirlo, pero lo hice”, sostuvo. 

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*deep breath* I am going to try my best to express myself to the best of my abilities. I am in no way promoting an unhealthy lifestyle- far from it. So, please, do not let that be your first thought glancing at this picture. I think when social media/Instagram first really took off, we adored and sought after before and afters- opposite of this. I was a victim to it, too. We think, “WOW, weight loss= happiness” and we pine for it. Don’t get me wrong, it is scientific fact for many, that “healthier habits” = “healthier bodies”. But not for all. I am transparent, and have shared this already, but a few months after the picture on the left, I had reached a new depth of depression that I thought I had “beat”. I had suicidal thoughts daily. It’s scary and uncomfortable to admit, but I did. In January of this year, I went back to my physician and started Zoloft again. Since then, I am still on it- the longest time I have ever remained on an anti depressant. My last appointment, when I weighed in, I had the realization that in eight months I had gained ten pounds. I’m not going to lie, I was initially horrified. Ten pounds to someone who has obsessed over image and portraying a “healthy lifestyle” is a failure. But then I realized… I realized that I actually have a healthier relationship with food than ever before. @fitfreaksmeals has helped me realize the importance of balanced nutrition, and since coming out of my depression I am actually nourishing my body rather than starving it. I realized that since being on my anti depressant, I am doing more “fun” things with my family and friends; rather than obsessing over my image or body fat %. I am still active in my gym, and am actually lifting heavier than in my whole life, and surpassing a variety of PRs from when I was “lean”. I wake up every day and feel SO. MUCH. BETTER. than the girl on the left did. I know that eventually my focus may change, and being lean may be a challenge I want to pursue again (and that’s totally ok!) But I just want to emphasis that what you see isn’t always what you get! And “health” May look different on everyone. ❤️ Stay blessed and don’t sweat these small squares too much, boo.

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”En enero de este año volví a mi médico y comencé a usar Zoloft nuevamente. Desde entonces, todavía estoy ingiriéndola, es el tiempo más largo que he permanecido con un antidepresivo. Mi última cita, cuando me pesé, me di cuenta de que en ocho meses había ganado diez libras (cuatro kilos y medio). No voy a mentir, al principio estaba horrorizada”, indicó Lee. 

A lo anterior, explica que “diez libras para alguien que se ha obsesionado con la imagen y retratar un ‘estilo de vida saludable’ es un fracaso. Pero luego me di cuenta que en realidad tengo una relación más sana con la comida que nunca”. 

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Headed to the gym for the first time all week like… 😅😩🎄☃️

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La joven se percató que el número en la pesa no importa, mientras ella consuma alimentos que nutran su cuerpo, está todo bien. “Me di cuenta de la importancia de una nutrición equilibrada y, desde que salí de mi depresión, en realidad estoy nutriendo mi cuerpo en lugar de matarlo de hambre”. 

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Growth is painful. Change is painful. But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you do not belong. There was a time where I truly believe I lost myself- and that goes so much deeper than fitness and physical appearance. These two women are simply just not the same. It translates into choices, habits, mindset, attitude, and honestly happiness. Thank you to everyone who’s been there from the beginning. I hope to be more than just a page on Instagram to you; but a friend and someone who understands what it feels like to feel hopeless and feel like giving up. Don’t do it. Don’t you dare give up. Xoxo PS- let me make one thing clear, on the left I was seven months postpartum and there is NOTHING, nada, not a thing wrong with the way that I looked! 👌🏼👍🏼 Just wanting to share my progress. Mommas, be kind to yourselves in the postpartum stages. ❤️

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Para finalizar, Lee indicó que hoy “me despierto todos los días y me siento así, mucho mejor que la chica de la izquierda. Sé que eventualmente mi enfoque puede cambiar, y ser delgado puede ser un desafío que quiera perseguir nuevamente (¡y eso está totalmente bien!). Pero solo quiero enfatizar que lo que ves, no siempre es lo que obtienes”.

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Several months after I had Presley I was so frustrated with where I was physically that I told myself I didn’t care anymore about eating healthy and working out. I felt defeated. I didn’t think I would ever be happy again with my body. I am 10000% an emotional/stress eater, and I just wanted to eat what I “wanted”. The gym was hard for me. My new post-baby body was foreign to me, and things that used to be second-nature had to be entirely relearned. Putting in the effort every day was HARD, and I honestly just didn’t want to do it anymore. I became a very miserable person. And I learned rather quickly that it WAS hard for me to keep going to the gym and trying to eat better, but it was also HARD to eat/feel unhealthy, to feel weak, to suffer low self-worth, and dislike my negative choices. I’m definitely not an expert or a coach or “instafamous”, but I keep sharing my story because I know there are others out there that suffer from low-motivation and feel hopeless or that happiness is never going to be attainable for them. I know exactly how that feels and it truly wasn’t that long ago. Social media can be harmful and make you feel like you will never “keep up with the Joneses” but that’s why I think progress pictures are so important. YOU are accountable to YOU, that’s it. I’m so proud that I didn’t give up on myself last year, and I just want to KEEP ON not giving up. ❤️ Around 21 months between these pictures, roughly 20 pounds and probably 3 cup sizes. 😂 #fitnessmotivation #postbabybody #transformation #beforeandafter #momswholift #workout #momlife #fitfam

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